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What is it like on the ~other side?~

(Also hi I am trying to be present & online n shiet...)

shiba trying hard
Me trying*

Hello! if you’re on my website omg hi and ty for being here I feel so OFFICIAL!

I know I’ve been gone, a while…

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OK, I WISH I could tell you guys without a doubt that I can hold a schedule. I never really have been able to except at the very veeeeery beginning of my cam-career lol. That was 2x days a week maybe only one some weeks-and as little as that sounds the consistency or maybe MFC was just more populated and the economy was better and heh, a lot of reasons but I was doing like-WELL. I’d love to try to do a 2x Live Show day with maybe some breaks for PVTS slotted in between and after like, 5-6hrs? I’m thinking of doing SUNDAYS somewhere around 11:00 AM ~ 3:00 PM ? Then again on Perhaps a THURSDAY at 3PM PST to 6 or later…see how it goes.

(Errr! This isn’t a guarantee-I wish I could but, I am a lil destroyer of order, an agent of chaos, and that’s just who I am!)

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SO YEAH I could probably update you on TONNES of sh!t-But I’m sure you’ve heard it all by now-Melody? BURNOUT? WHAT!! I NEVER KNEW!? I NEVER THOUGHT SHE WOULD HIATUS AGAIN GEE!” and don’t get me started with the OnlyFans rubbish etc…Sh!ts been pretty hard in Sexy Streamer Street, Porno Purgatory, and Adult Business Boulevard…Not EVERYTHING affects me right away-or even gets to the endpoint of hurting me? Examples being porn is evil rhetoric, website TOS changes, and the internet is in the light of more Legislation…banned content, deleted accounts-IT doesn’t always happen but it’s THREATENING.

It makes me, and I’m already pretty sensitive overall…It’s not a bad thing, but I can’t seem to bounce back after seeing just the overall consensus (IN THE USA where I am now,) be so anti-porn anti-masturbation antifeminist, PRO censorship, PRO changing the internet to make it less free open as well as private…it all fucking HURTS to see and to know, too, that society wants you for a 10-minute show and then wants you to be thrown into a lake of fire for daring to tempt the consumer for being commodity…like…it doesn’t feel good. I am discriminated against. I am avoiding calling the bank and I find myself LYING about what I do when I do LEGAL, TAXES PAID N ALL WERK-WORK!??!?!? If I am not legal or legit in the hearts of the majority of Americans I don’t want to be here. Sorry. I’m sure if you follow Camgirls you know the struggle is real-and real stupid too. I wish I could shake it off and I will try to for you and for this career because it is legit it was…IS my lil’ 1st gen immigrant “AMERICAN DREAM”!

So, I hope to see you on Thursday if I can. Check my Twitter feed either on Twitter or just by going to the homepage here!-I’ll be SURE to update you with where the fukkk I am STREAMING and provide AN ACTUAL REAL LINK to the chatroom!

AS ALWAYS! Thanks for all your support, as I couldn’t be doing this crazy sh!t without the support you give me in time, engagement+conversation, in tips, vids, and customs clips! I couldn’t be happier that you are here reading even THIS right now too….wtf.

Haha! ALL my well wishes, and lots of love too!

Melody x